April 5th, 2010 | Posted in Personal | 3 Comments »
I’ve come to realize that days of reflection aren’t all bad. It’s good to prioritize things and step back from the day to day occasionally, to assess what’s important to you and where your next chosen path will lead.
I just think I do it all too much.
Like, I seem to be in this perpetual state of ‘waaaaah I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up!’ and quite frankly, I’m starting to annoy myself. I like to have all these plans and big dreams about what to do with my future only to have a bad day sometime and cast them off to the side. I make absolutely no sense. Two steps forward and one step back.
I guess I feel like there’s some mold that I need to be fitting in to at this juncture of my life. As though I need to have x amount of things all figured out to be a normal, functioning member of society. Career choice and finances being at the top of the ‘I should know all this by now’ list. Meh, I don’t.
Maybe that’s okay though. Life has a funny way of taking you places you never thought you’d end up. Maybe my moment of enlightenment is right around the corner.
March 2nd, 2010 | Posted in Personal | 5 Comments »
Lots of good things have been going on recently. Josh just got a job promotion, which means more recognition for his hard work, and the fact he’ll be bringing home more money. This excites me to no end. Not that I’m all about having a lot of things or spending frivolously (like many people are), but I am happy that this means we’ll have more opportunities to make positive changes in our lives.
For example, we’ve been a one car family for as long we’ve been together. Though I do work, I mostly just make enough to pay for groceries/household necessities. I drive my mother’s car to work since it’s not very far, and while I’m thankful for the opportunity to do that, I couldn’t tell you how many times I’ve thought about how nice it would be to have my own car. Something that I wouldn’t have to call about and ask to borrow for a trip to the grocery store or to drive to work that day. This job promotion makes us having a 2nd car for the first time ever a real possibility.
But aside from the better income, I’m also so incredibly proud of Josh and what he’s accomplished to get this far in his job. He works long hours and he’s good at what he does. It makes me happy to see him being recognized and rewarded for his efforts. This, in turn, makes me want to take a page from his book. The restaurant where I currently work was never intended to become a permanent thing for me. I’ve been there for three years, and I’ve begun to feel like it’s time for a change. However, the whole ‘not having a car’ thing really got in the way of that before. Yeah, I could still drive my mother’s car like I am now, but I’ve always known that that wouldn’t work out for very long. Full time jobs require a lot of hours…hours that I know she couldn’t go without a vehicle for very long. It wouldn’t be fair to her, so that’s about 50% of the reason why I’ve stayed at my current, 3-day-a-week job.
And I keep imagining all of the good things that could happen from there. I get my own car, and I’m free to go out and really put forth a conscious effort to finding a better paying/more satisfying job. A better job = better income and happier me. A better income and a happier me = even more possibilities. Build our own home? Take some classes? Have the kind of disposable income where we can do more things as a family and provide even better for our son?
My head is in the clouds. And I owe it all to my awesome husband.
